I'm sorry for putting that weight on your shoulders. But, I do have to tell you that me thinking you loved me really, really did help me a lot. My life crashed back in January, and because you were there, it kept me strong. And stronger, then February, I had you there. Then March, and everything between us went wrong and I realized... I'm stronger. So thank you, for making me a stronger person, and making me have the chance to stay alive, because well, that night when I ran away from home, I stood on top of a bridge looking down at the cars moving, and I thought: "George is there for you when you get home.", so I got down, went home, and there you were, you were there for me. You did save my life, and without you being in my life, and all the mistakes we made, it's given me the will to want to carry on. Let's face it, we were a shit couple lol. <3
i’m happy that i’ve helpt to help you, and we where such a shit couple ahahaha.
I won't lie, I did kinda have that gut feeling you didn't. I always kind of new, I just always hoped it wasn't true and just my head playing with me. I'll tell you what though, I admit I took this way too far out of proportion, and truth be told, I would never had even sent that nudge, because I never saved it. I knew it would all come down to the moment when I say, "I can use this against him.", but I never would. I just needed to find a way for you to tell me those words, the simple, "I don't really love you.", but no, I wouldn't have killed myself, I'm too much of a coward. And well, I kind of hoped that everything could go back to normal as soon as I told you I first loved you, as soon as I told Markus to tell you, after I ran away from home, I regretted it, because I didn't want to lead you on. But, I think we can both say that we pretended and faked it half of the time. I don't think we'd be able to start over, I've gone too far, and well, done to much to hurt you. Believe me when I say, there will be someone out there for you, someone who will sit by you, nd someone who will love you for everything you are, someone who will truly love you and not use empty threats like sending nudes. I'll admit I lied to you a lot along the way, I made some stupid lies and I regret them. But this taught me a valuable lesson, and I thank you for showing me that. You've done nothing but be nice, and to know all this time you pretended to save my life, means a lot. I'm sorry for not being that person you deserve, but someone is. Someone deserves you, because you're a really fucking great guy. I love you as a friend :') <3
god i’m crying, it just feels nice to have all the weight lifted of my shoulders now and I will and always have done loved you as a friend.
I will drop everything, and delete everything. If you simply talk and be honest with me.
I’ve been honest with you except one thing, I never did love you i’d got friendship and love mixed up thats why i’d never tell you how i’d actually feel, I pretended to love you so you wouldn’t kill yourself or do something stupid, thats how much I loved you as friend and still do, just want to start all over.
oh lordy, that is unbelievably shit. i checked out the messages on your blog and it seems pretty harsh of him to do that, if you send him nudes he shouldn't do anything with them, it's like a private thing and to use them for revenge is cowardly. i hope he's reading this >:| x
ahhh another person who agrees with me he is just making me hate him, I did still wan’t to be friends with him but he is making it so hard.
I’ll shorten the story down, was in a long distance relationship i’d stupidly sent him nudes and not that i’ve broke up with him is now going to leak them all over tumblr and send them to my friends and family, so yeah feel like shit.
See the thing is, you never really told me how you felt. I was so open, and told you pretty much anything, but not you. You kept everything locked away and played it off fine, I need more than a cowardly apology.
i’ve just said i dont ever talk to anyone about my feelings, and how is my apology cowardly? if your going to leak my nudes to everyone i’ll just beat you to the chase and i’d rather do it myself.
Sir, sir, sir!!! No more cutting or thoughts of death!! You know how to fix this! Get out your pipe and put Gaga in your headphones and all of the bad stuff goes away! Please don't hurt yourself!! :'-]
don’t worry i’m not going to be hurting myself for a long time now, I hope.